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My name is Ella.
I come from New Zealand.

I’m making a new tumblr, for reasons that are obvious both in the asks I just posted and what I’m about to say. Sorry irl people that I love following, ie Liam, Liam, Alice, Mikaela ,and Jose , but you aren’t going to have the link to my new one, because I am running away from abusive relationships that make me sick, and these assholes are always finding new ways for me to live my life around them, and I can’t risk them finding me.

First off, as mentioned multiple times, someone who lives in wellington checks this tumblr 2-4 (depending on the week) times a day,

and checks the ‘robbie’ tag. Wonder who that is, and, with a personal post I made, suddenly someone from England comes on my post and gets asshurt about my life, which they are no longer part of by their own choice, and proceeds to go through all of my blog and makes statements about how I push everyone away and don’t get help.

You haven’t talked to me in months because it’s “unfair” of me to blame my goddamn abuser for mental illness, so how dare you assume you know what I am doing for help. I’m going to call you a cunt to my two counsellors and Doctor who prescribes my meds, so go fuck yourself, and you two, who are the people I scream and cry about to my friends and have goddamn nightmares about, can stop talking about me between yourself, apart from maybe reflecting, wow, I really fucked someone up, what the hell does that say about me. Also Charlotte looked up what abuse culture is, so maybe you cunts can learn something and your involvement in it.

Do you people know what it’s like coming onto your blog after making a personal post and seeing that you suddenly had a massive spike page views? No.

Also, Robbie, I hope to God you’ve dropped out of university, because the person I ran to tonight for comfort after being so initially frightened, is the type of person who encouraged me to do what I want to do, because I deserve it.  And despite how fucking terrified I am and how my body is literally breaking down because of it, it’s my life and I refuse to live my life around you and the goddamn epinephrine pumping through my system which makes me “one of the worst cases of anxiety seen”  by a goddamn medical professional.

So, go fuck yourselves, and people who are friends with one of those two, have fun gossiping because I’ve had enough of anonymous people sending me asks asking “what happened between you and Robbie?? :)” and viewing my personal life as their own gossip forum. Fuck you fuck you fuck you, I’m a person.

In conclusion, fucking terrible people ruined my life and are continuing to do so by being obsessive and harrassing me??? and they really goddamn preyed on me when I was at an already weak point (thanks Germany). Fuck them and fuck it.

Ps there are two people from Poland and Michigan who check on my blog a lot, and in the complete opposite to the other people, it’s really nice that some strangers on the internet care and check up on what I’m doing. Hit me up if you’re one of them because you’re definitely someone I don’t mind knowing my blog :-)

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RE: your post about people not wanting to hear this shit yesterday. People don't want to hear it because those who do want to help, you push away. You say you're incredibly mentally ill so get some help rather than bad mouth others and blaming them for not caring.

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i wanna marry somebody cuter than me but sadly…i am the cutest :/

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COOL DATE IDEA: take a really long nap with me

Scientifically and psychologically speaking, long periods of physical contact or just closeness stimulate chemicals in the brain that promote trust. If you’ve ever slept while cuddling somebody you just met, you know how incredibly comfortable you feel with them after you wake up, as if you’ve known each other for years. So yes, a long nap together is actually the ideal date if your goal is a relationship based on trust.

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zodiac awards 

aries: angriest asshole award
taurus: number two and loving it award
gemini: superficial nervous wreck award
cancer: crybaby emotionpants award
leo: egotist extraordinaire award
virgo: petty perfectionist award
libra: indecisive “individual” award
scorpio: secretive bastard award
sagittarius: expert exaggerator award
capricorn: condescending parent award
aquarius: complete weirdo award
pisces: idealistic idiot award

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agent carter is being written and produced by two female showrunners and dominic cooper is coming back as howard stark and what i’m trying to say here is are we SURE we all aren’t experiencing a mass hallucination of some sort because this is too fucking good to be true

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